Self Reliance

I have had alot of talks recently about how I live my life.

How I bend to everyone else, just to keep everyone around me happy. How I have lived my whole life trying to repent for sins I never committed. How my sense of loyalty towards others gets the best of me.

I mean, there are definitely some salvagable things, I mean. I find myself to be a really good person for the most part. I love certain aspects about myself, things I wouldn't trade for the world.

I can still keep those things and still learn something new.

I can stay in touch with myself while discovering a new way of life.

It is time for me to gain self-confidence, and to know that, yes, I am important enough to stand up for.

Someone told me once that standing up for yourself, knowing your own self worth, is one of the most important things out there. It is what transitions you from a life of "good enoughs" to what you actually want.

And that is what my problem seemed to root itself to.

I was stuck in this idea that life is just something to get by. That other people define me, and that in my head. I was defined to be just "good enough."

and then I was introduced to what someone once called the "do it yourself ethic"

DIY

wikipedia says that the DIY ethic refers to the ethic of being self-reliant by completing tasks oneself as opposed to having others who are more experienced or able to complete them for you. It promotes the idea that an ordinary person can learn to do more than he or seh thought was possible. Naturally, a DIY attitude requires that teh adherent attain the knowledge required to complete a given task. Without this DIY is not an effective dogma. The term can refer to "doing" anything at all, including creative endeavors.

Rather than belittling or showing disdain for knowledge or expertise, DIY champions the average individual seeking knowledge and expertise for him/herself. INstead of using the services of others who have expertise. a DIY oriented person would seek out the knowledge for him/herself.

To do this, one needs to belive in themselves. One needs to figure out that they are important.

You would think that if I were willing to put this on my blog, it would be true for me.

But this is not the case...

Yes, I can see and hear the words, but I am still having trouble figuring out how this fits into my life, with who I am.

But now I have something to kind of aspire to.

I will soon figure out how to mesh the two lives, the two aspects of myself together to get this "happy harmony of DIY and me."

I hope this is easier than it sounds.