"Save for a few of those late night episodes, missed opportunities that I don't care. There's not alot that I feel obliged to share, or talk about."
-Motion City Soundtrack, Hold Me Down
It find it important to note,
that the second you think you have figured someone out
the second you think you understand them
they change on you.
Whether it is intentionally planned or not, it sure as hell is confusing.
I mean just the other day, two people that I thought I understood changed before my eyes in a span of three hours.
I know that this probably happens to other people when they look at me.
After going through a fight with one of my friends over the summer, I discussed this with my friend Jake.
"You have layers of personality, and people don't really understand that. When they get to a layer they didn't expect they panic."
So I shouldn't really be surprised that other people are the same.
Or maybe, it is the perspective of the viewer that changes. I mean, I may view someone as something one day, and my perspective might change and I discover something new. It may have always been there, in fact, it probably was always there, but if you have chosen to ignore it all this time, no wonder it's a surprise.
Everyone has to be honest for a moment and understand that we don't treat all of our friends equally.
Quite the contrary, actually.
I mean we all make the differentiation between our best friends and our cool-to-hang-out-with-friends, but even within our best friends circle (particularly for girls) we have designated roles for different friends.
I admit to doing exactly that.
I don't seperate into, "which friends are best-er friends," but I have certain friends that I only really talk about certain things with.
I have a friend I talk about boy stuff with,
A friend to talk about my family issues,
friends that I focus my "deeper discussions"
and then there are some that I talk about everything with.
and then there are those that I consider closer to me that I talk about nothing with. Funny, huh?
Well just recently I have had two people tell me that their opinion of me, their view of me has changed.
Dramatically.
and I accept this...
So is it okay for me to still be utterly confused by it?
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