My Subconscious Kills.

Confusion.

That is what I have been feeling for the past few weeks. I am so lost at the moment, and I'm not even sure as to why that is. I no longer really understand what it is I'm actually feeling on a day to day basis, and I can't make decisions on anything.

Am I happy?
I don't know.

Am I sad?
I don't know.

What do I want for lunch today?
I don't know.

I am sick of being so...lost.

I suppose this really has been going on for a while and that I just didn't think it was an issue until now. I always just had more prevelant things to occupy myself with, but now that those things are taken away...I find myself thrown into a path of self discovery.

And the funny thing is, I don't really know what it is I am discovering.

Carissa's theory is that my subconscious is "showing me the way," but that I am choosing to ignore it (at least for one particular issue)...

Stupid subconscious.

Minke said "Tia, you're bipolar."
Sure, he was referring to something else entirely, but it got me thinking that maybe he is kind of right. I know I'm not actually bipolar, but the term kind of fits when it comes to my decision making skills and lack of direction.

Self discovery of today...
My subconscious kills.

Can't wait to find out what my next discovery is.