World, Revolve Around Someone Else Please.

I severely dislike being the center of attention...

but don't misunderstand this statement.

Sure, as alot of you know, I am a performer.
I sing in front of hundreds of people, I lead groups and clubs, I act, and am generally in the "spotlight" alot.

The thing is, although everyone is watching you and "paying attention to you," they don't actually care about you at all. Better yet, they don't expect anything from you.

When someone listens to you sing, they want to hear nothing of your past or your future, they don't expect anything from you but a pretty voice.

People watch you act and they don't care about you as a person, they care about the character you are portraying for their enjoyment.

You represent a club, like GSA or Environmental Issues, and people don't care about you and your own personal issues, they care about the issue you are choosing to represent.

When you are in these situations you really have nothing to lose. That is the crucial difference to the "center of attention" I am referring to.

No, I am speaking of when you are the center of the attention of those who want to know those things. They want to hear of your issues, your past, your future, your life, and any other detail they can get from you.

This scares me.

It isn't really peoples intentions, whether good or bad the result in my mind is the same. Whether they want to judge me or care for me, I still feel like being in this kind of attention makes you extremely vulnerable.

and vulnerability is my worst fear.